She speaks. Or rather, she writes.

so i was at the MAP in DTI.. which was waaay too long and boring AND
had lousy food.. all was compensated by the special attention the
rector gave to me :)

nways.. was watching some crappy dikir
barat presentation, when i started reminisching.. my highschool chicks
were the champs in KL for dikir barat.. even when all people could say
was.. dikir barat is a MAN’S territory..

so what happen to us
girls?? we were great leaders, we were amazing performers, and by
golly, we were one smart clan! then.. the inevitable.. we join the real
world.. where men exist, and tell us we are no where near as good as
them..

why did we fall for it?

why, as time unfolded
itself, did we cease to be the powerful women we once were, and instead
alter who we are to fit into the prescribed role of women.. according
to the society?? nevermind other people, ME! I used to be a great
leader, id lead anytime and everytime, and i was good at it! id get
results, we’d flourish and at the end of the day, il get a medal
certifying my great leadership. ok maybe not all that simple, the mind does have selective memory for the history :)

nevetheless,
the point now is, i question every single move i make as a leader. how
come no one gets me? how come, whilst i can be the brains behind great
feats, it ultimately becomes a success IF and only if.. a man was in
charge. IF a man was dishing out orders, orders that I, me, me, me, me
think of??

it was like that in debates, it was VERY apparent in MPP, n sadly, it seems to be taking the same path in SIFE.

i think women need more reinforcement on who we are…